is this weird or wad? i find comfort in writting blogss. hmmm.
soo u can tell when i update my blog im jus plain bored or jus very troubled.
well i guess u can tell why im blogging now.


to e one person ive let down;
dear you:im sorry. if u don really know how much im truly sorry and guilty i feel rite now; im telling all of u now. i hav been a lousy fren, stubborn listener and terrible fren. oh k ive mentioned tat alr. anyways, i hope its not on purpose or wadsnot. im jus very preoccupied with myself. i guess ive been too selfish. and again putting myself above others is a very rare thing for me. i guess with everything thats gg on this is e only way t recuperate myself. im not taking care of myself tats one thing for sure. for my love ones i'll try t be strong.wads e best medicine?love?friends?it seem t good t be true;

t e one person i love; cared for n ... my lil sis
i know u wont be reading this but yea...

hav u ever felt like ur less of urself because of someone else. everytime ur there, my existence is soo much lesser t everyone else. or mayb its jus me. anyways, its difficult for me t be ur big sister as well as my crazy self when ur there. e burden is extra. everything seem heavier. my frens starts t drift away.everything tat once made me smile n laugh makes me weep now. its not fair t u. but taking care of you 24 hours is not a pretty job. i cannot let myself t be there and act im fine when seriously i rather jus walk away den feel tat way. arhg. i tot it'll be easier if i actually drift away from my frens n u. but e only happiness i knew was em n you. how? i ask u. i jus hav t accept it.

and now with everything said n done;
im standing alone;



-hearing those words makes me weep...